Saturday, April 16, 2005

...i'm confused...wut does dat supposed 2 mean...

I've just realized the importance of education in our life. maksud aku...baruk sedar maksud sebenar "kepentingan" education itself. b4 diz?? i didn't give a fcuk. bincang hal perancangan masa dpn dgn cikgu Baludin. nya mdh kita pelu ada arah tuju lam idup. u don't wana b like those people...pegi skolah, tp ahe2 jadi pengawal jak. pegi skolah, ahe2 jadi kerani. knak cdak cuma mampu dpt kerja gya? sebab keputusan ujian cdak xbagus. knak xbgs? sebab ambik ringan hal pelajaran n xblaja mena2. he sets me thinking...wut i wana do in life. Frankly speakin, I wana b an anchorwoman...or a journalist...or something within the industry lah. yeah...I noe. That is something that doesn't have anything 2 do wit science. While I'm on the other side...is in the science stream. I got some frenz...urging me not 2 waste time doin science when I can get into art stream and score in SPM easily. They sed dat I don't need Bio, Physics or Chemistry anywayz...and dat Accountancy or Economy wud do much better 4 me IF I wana b an anchorwoman...or a journalist...or something within the industry. But hey, that is a big IF rite? I can't do it bcoz it's 2 risky. Y?? Coz I hate Geo and Accountancy (u need 2 do some ledger work wit dat in handz rite?). I hate ledger...it remindz me of Hjh Seriah. My mortal enemy. Bsides...I'm not sure if I will fit in. N honestly...aku dah mula syok kat Biologi n Fizik. wakaka...hard 2 believe eh?? but yeah seriously, dats da fact...I started 2 get interested in physics once I got 2 noe it better from Cikgu Bidari. Yalah...senang sebenanya fizik tok...mun kita phm lah. Kesimpulannya, I'm gona stick wit da science stream n mayb b an astronomer one day. ahax...did I tell ya...I like starz! =p

Well, dat's wut I got from the discussions wit Cikgu Baludin. Yep the principal kat Pusat Bimbingan Karya (PBK). Tmpt yg aku sumpah seranah time aku 1st masok cya...tmpt yg aku rasa mok bakar (Leo!! bakar juh bangunan maksiat tok!) jak bila bapak aku paksa tusyen cya. Kuikui...great effects huh?? Btw, ptg tadik ada piano practical exam. Owh my God...xpnah dlm sejarah aku main piano terok gilak kedakya. Aku nang nervous, panic n xdpt molah sigek pun secara perfect...suma ada ckit stumble...which is real annoying! Suma tok akibat drpd aku yg malas practice...and yeah...u guessed it! aku nangis dpn2 examiner ya. dahla mat saleh...malu doe! omputeh ya nanyak ndah knak aku nangis...dberiknya aku tisu kleenex. pucimak mena...sengaja lik memalukan aku. Ms Sim mdh, padan muka aku sebab malas practice...there's nothing I can do bila result exam kua klak bulan 12. yeah...wutever lah, bitch. I'm quitting anyways. I hate piano!! N after today, aku xkan sentuh gik benda sial ya! huh!

Something 2 cheer me up (after adegan tangis-menangis dpn omputeh), esok my frenz dtg umah. we gurlz r going 2 make...CHEESE CAKE!!!!! Yahoo!! I hope everything iz gona b fine...although Farah cudn't make it here. Pipot a.k.a adik nana (u guyz noe her by dat huh?) is comin over so there will b so much fun and I hope it'll help me 2 forget the bloody white examiner and dat stupid look he gave me. shyt u!