Friday, May 06, 2005

...how i wish dat things wud go my way...

k...ummm...4 things to go my way? dats absolutely impossible. but still...mpuan sial ya ilang camera. wakaka...u shud c da smile on my face! padan muka...sapa nyuruh bangga dirik glak??? nak ka dah kenak...ahax! 2 da pencury, u rox!!!!!!!!! =p

Monday, May 02, 2005

...always...

Movin on, i'd never regreted anything in my life. even me, meeting with him. i took it as a new experience. i mean it cud help rite? mayb words doesn't mean anything at times like this...

Everytime we had a fight, I had always thought that 'that' will b the last I heard of him. I'd always thought that we're gona break up. always thought that we will never gona make it. at times like that, i'll try so hard 2 assure myself that everything's gona b alrite, rockaby...i'll tell myself that there's actually someone out there hu's much better than him, waitin 4 me...always forced myself 2 get him outta my head. and i always thought i succeeded. but always 2, i was wrong. we cudn't seem 2 b seperated. it kills the both side and when he wanted me back, i had always give in...which sux n i hate myself 4 it.

BUT! this time, i don't c any ways dat we're gona get together again. he smashed "it" so hard i don't ever think i cud look at him again. i dunno...i dunno how some people can b so heartless. life's so crazy. ahaha...

No more sad stories here! i'm just tryin 2 get him out of my mind by thinking of him. =p yep...trust me...that's the best way 2 4get somebody after a breakup.

Friday, April 29, 2005

...experiences...

yep...mpuan ngkah lam profile fwenste nya "dangerously in love with...". laki ngkah "my future wife, i love u...satu2nya mpuan yg aku cinta..." seriously...ingga aku nangga eh...urg lain ada juak gerek. xda mcm ya. ngeso ngan sigek dunia nya ada gerek. cam urg sakai....xmalu ka d pdh sakai?

not jealous ok. buat pa nak jealous? i got my own man. n we're not like other couples...bangga dirik or show off. duh? mun gerek aku brani nak show off, aku bante nya sampey koma. nang ada ngeso gya...antap lik sakai xpnah begerek...

so anywayz...i miss my seniors. i noe it's hard 2 believe...but i do miss them!!!! rindue mena. rindue nak bejelin, beterais, berumbak dgn cdak...*sigh* masing2 dah ikut haluan dikpun...aku cuma xsaba nak get rid of cdak pom5 taun tok. suma kemak2 belaka...

Saturday, April 23, 2005

...some things r better left untouched...

so...it was decided...i'm not goin 2 da groove fiesta. huehue...bowring ya bah. xda papa juak. bsides, i dun wana c a few faces yg menyakitkan mata. but 2 Nate, gud luck oi! sowy aku xpat dtg k nambah supporters kau...aku tauk tok pesaingan sengit n i'm sowy i cudnt b there but ilek ar...mira ada. sure kamboh ktkurg lak.

anywayz, aku sebenanya mok g lepak'ing' wit ask n da gang (da bois 2!!) in pendin...so duh?? G.F? Hah!! got sumting more interesting than dat! sowy ha farah...i cudnt bring u along. i noe u wana meet them but since kau betugas PUM, seda lah dirik ckit ok? ahax...bejual jak cya...okeh! aku promote PUM lok. woii miak kolej (n outsiderz yg bakal hadir)!!!!! belilah kat gerai PUM!!! Y'all knak la support da collegian business industry!p azid mdh ktkurg jak yg bejual ariya, so aku rasa...laku lah juak kali. ahax, no worries lah a-key!

as 4 me, haha...i'l go lepak'ing'! yep...realese tensyen "mY OwN WaY'!!! noe wut i mean? memang tensyen pun...but i'll do anything to get over da bloody shithead. windue ngan cdak ehs. dahla jarang bejumpa dah knektok so i guess kompom "byk" agenda mekurg esok...n i wana go shoplifting kat 7/11! haha...like old times. damn...i'll do anything 2 get over da bloody shithead...

some things r better left untouched...so aku rasa xpelu lah aku mdh sebab2 knak aku x g GF. truth may hurt some people reading diz...yeah, like i said SOME people...coz sebab2 nya bkn ckit n i'm sure i cud make a list of hundred reason y i avoid bein there n just as a sketch, my worries r all about...da outsiders, da participants n of coz...some pom5 bitches dat i noe i never cud have looked at normally without wincing. *winced* bitches...*sigh*...can't stand them...

so dats all about the sketch n now i'm gonna talk bout some real things...not a sketch. frankly sayin...i'm pissed off wit bois. hard 2 believe i noe. but gne nak molah...i'm real pissed off n sometimes my hatred reached 2 a point where i wish dat they never existed...but 2 which when thinking about it twice...wudnt do any good n is one of da main reason of social ills...lesbians. so...i guess diz world needs bois...good bois. ARRGGHHH!!!!! Need 2 get rid of them...

Friday, April 22, 2005

...coming clean...

k...umm...been a lil emo 2day. dunno y. nysa said it must b da effect from last night's incident n even when i'm typing diz i still dun feel like talkin bout dat. it pissed me off. i dunno. it feels real...n i'm not sure if i like it. fuck...better 2 b cryin now than later....

seriously...

not a lil emo...

i think it's "bitch"...

yep...

been a lil bitch 2 day...

Got frenz but not a big help at times like this. got Adam n Zharif n thinking bout da 2 of them just ease everything. saw HIM 2...but as usual...we don't talk. yep...we both noe that there r times when words have no meaning so we stared at each other n dat drives me nuts n when he passed me by i just broke down. God...now I'm wonderin if we will ever b like old times again n I'm wonderin if we r goin 2 stay diz way even when we r seventeen or married n have children ourselves 2 which when I'm typing diz i feel dat truth hurts n i wana scream

FUCK!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

God noes how i wanted him so much...

Wednesday, April 20, 2005

...typical under 18's...

mission accomplished...kompom miss janice gagal. aritok suma miak 4sc4 sepakat mensabotaj mpuan ya n now i'm sure, nya dpt da lowest mark berbanding miss lilian. but apa jak lah nak...yg pentg nya gagal. lam klas tek time pensyarah nya dtg, aku gk mkn aiskrim. ada nak sengaja lewat masok. lalek pa ngan nya...pasya time nya kaka kat dpn aku eksen tdo. ada urg nak becakap. suma mok ngenak nya. huehue...apa pk ko? kmkurg dah 16taun k...dat shows ya not 2 mess wit us. k bitch?

btw, aku lom anta portfolio math...n ah san xnanyak soalan pun. aritok tang ok2 jak nya. xda manas2. kompom knak kaco urg laki ensem tok...padahal aku sah2 dpn matanya gk molah kerja lain x dlalek nya juax. Adam ngek dudok sebelah aku. mek duak "beraba" sama dirik. nisa ngan farah dblakang mekurg komplen... "ktk 2 tok eh kedak urg baruk nikah...xpuas mantat mlm tadik!!" aku mdh "kemak mena...". p mena juak...upa mek 2 kedak pa jak...mun pk balit knektok, aku pun nait gelik. kuikui...mati aku mun "en" tauk. en ya mpuan yg mnat kat Adam. tapi syg nya...Adam 'bencik' kat nya. ahax...bitch...

groove fiesta...pk duak kali...i dun give a fuck bout it. turun x? x eh. gus ku kua ngan kwn2 jak. g pendin...lepak ngan geng aku d cya...lamak xjumpa ehs. mun dah bejumpa gya...mcm2 boleh jadi. huehue...can't wait 2 c them! =) i'm wonderin...does anybody realized dat there iz something out there dat's much more interesting then da groove thingy? yep...much more fun...well...in a way...

Monday, April 18, 2005

...battle of da wut???...

ok...so mayb dat "virgin" thingy doesn't work on HIM. *sigh* pelik...nang pelik...aku sampe mati akal oleh nya. nasiblah. but not 2 talk bout dat 2day, there's something else botherin me n i wish dat i cud just get rid of it. my worries bout a "gurl". yeah, there's diz gurl lah. i dunno her n she doesn't noe me so we r strangerz but i wonder y these dayz i'm keepin my eyes on her. i mean, worried bout her lah. she has changed so much n i dun like dat. liar gilak...umm...k...mayb i was like her once upon a time...but dats over now k. aku dah insap n...yeah...i'm gettin better n noe da importance of education...at least! but look at her...ntah bila nak sedar...hisy!! seriously lah...y do i care about her? i talked bout diz wit a guy fren of mine n he was like "r u a lesbian?" God no!! i'm not a lesbian ok?? i'm just worried bout her n i heard dat nya pun dah xvirgin gk lepas knak ntam leh sorg urg laki pom5 nak xbetanggong jawab tok n i hate him so much n yeah...i noe...dat gives me a strange feeling n i myself is worried bout myself. wakaka...tauk xpa retinya? but jez frankly sayin lah...i'm not a fucking lesbian n u all pun tauk i like guyz VEWY MUCH n phm2lah. yeah! i like guyz n i love 2 c them naked n dat doesn't put me as a lesbian! so kesimpulannya, aku bkn lesbian although we gurlz take baths together...sometimes lah, n we're not a lesbian although some guyz even said dat we looked like fucking lesbian but God noes better dat we're not a lesbian even when adit once found out dat *** n i took a bath together naked but still, we're not lesbian, just good gurl frenz n yeah, 4 da last time, I'M NOT A LESBIAN!!!!!! Ehh?? who said i was??

Sunday, April 17, 2005

...the cheese princess...

YAHOO!!!!! An absolute success!! cheese cake yg dbuat mek urg manjadi!! wakaka...well...at least i thought dat it's a success. rite shaf? err...ok...maybe i messed up a bit there (nasib mama xperasan...) was it 12gram of gellatine? aku rasa...aku engkah 20gram. ugh...p xjuak antap owh...=p tujuan sebena aku ajak shaf, nysa and pipot ke rumah aku is 2 help me get over yesterday's event. yeah...kinda work...a bit. coz i think i'll b very positive if da result comes in, diz december. yeah...i'm positive dat i'll b positive. huehue...ces...nyaman na cheese cake ya ehs! pande juak tgn aku molah cake owh. pity farah cudn't make it here. ilek gurl...mayb next time k.

Saturday, April 16, 2005

scream!

Realize and realise r the same thing!! And "principal" maksudnya pengetua. bukan "principle"! "principle" ya maksudnya prinsip!! get it?? dpt beza x antara principle ngan principal?? well, aku ngerepak gtok coz geram ngan sekok bitch pom 5 tok. nya ada blog...and nya ngeja pengetua as "principle". pengetua=prinsip?? huh!! stupid! padahal klas 5sc1!!

Gosh! did I say dat? Owh yeah I did...wakaka...ya retinya aku bencikk gla babi ngan mpuan ya. geng dak sombong2 belaka...geng dak "syikin" yg xtauk malu!! Bytches...*sigh* can't stand them...

...i'm confused...wut does dat supposed 2 mean...

I've just realized the importance of education in our life. maksud aku...baruk sedar maksud sebenar "kepentingan" education itself. b4 diz?? i didn't give a fcuk. bincang hal perancangan masa dpn dgn cikgu Baludin. nya mdh kita pelu ada arah tuju lam idup. u don't wana b like those people...pegi skolah, tp ahe2 jadi pengawal jak. pegi skolah, ahe2 jadi kerani. knak cdak cuma mampu dpt kerja gya? sebab keputusan ujian cdak xbagus. knak xbgs? sebab ambik ringan hal pelajaran n xblaja mena2. he sets me thinking...wut i wana do in life. Frankly speakin, I wana b an anchorwoman...or a journalist...or something within the industry lah. yeah...I noe. That is something that doesn't have anything 2 do wit science. While I'm on the other side...is in the science stream. I got some frenz...urging me not 2 waste time doin science when I can get into art stream and score in SPM easily. They sed dat I don't need Bio, Physics or Chemistry anywayz...and dat Accountancy or Economy wud do much better 4 me IF I wana b an anchorwoman...or a journalist...or something within the industry. But hey, that is a big IF rite? I can't do it bcoz it's 2 risky. Y?? Coz I hate Geo and Accountancy (u need 2 do some ledger work wit dat in handz rite?). I hate ledger...it remindz me of Hjh Seriah. My mortal enemy. Bsides...I'm not sure if I will fit in. N honestly...aku dah mula syok kat Biologi n Fizik. wakaka...hard 2 believe eh?? but yeah seriously, dats da fact...I started 2 get interested in physics once I got 2 noe it better from Cikgu Bidari. Yalah...senang sebenanya fizik tok...mun kita phm lah. Kesimpulannya, I'm gona stick wit da science stream n mayb b an astronomer one day. ahax...did I tell ya...I like starz! =p

Well, dat's wut I got from the discussions wit Cikgu Baludin. Yep the principal kat Pusat Bimbingan Karya (PBK). Tmpt yg aku sumpah seranah time aku 1st masok cya...tmpt yg aku rasa mok bakar (Leo!! bakar juh bangunan maksiat tok!) jak bila bapak aku paksa tusyen cya. Kuikui...great effects huh?? Btw, ptg tadik ada piano practical exam. Owh my God...xpnah dlm sejarah aku main piano terok gilak kedakya. Aku nang nervous, panic n xdpt molah sigek pun secara perfect...suma ada ckit stumble...which is real annoying! Suma tok akibat drpd aku yg malas practice...and yeah...u guessed it! aku nangis dpn2 examiner ya. dahla mat saleh...malu doe! omputeh ya nanyak ndah knak aku nangis...dberiknya aku tisu kleenex. pucimak mena...sengaja lik memalukan aku. Ms Sim mdh, padan muka aku sebab malas practice...there's nothing I can do bila result exam kua klak bulan 12. yeah...wutever lah, bitch. I'm quitting anyways. I hate piano!! N after today, aku xkan sentuh gik benda sial ya! huh!

Something 2 cheer me up (after adegan tangis-menangis dpn omputeh), esok my frenz dtg umah. we gurlz r going 2 make...CHEESE CAKE!!!!! Yahoo!! I hope everything iz gona b fine...although Farah cudn't make it here. Pipot a.k.a adik nana (u guyz noe her by dat huh?) is comin over so there will b so much fun and I hope it'll help me 2 forget the bloody white examiner and dat stupid look he gave me. shyt u!

Friday, April 15, 2005

...and they say...

created a blog on fwenste. cess...gai lik. dah la susah mok manage! jgn salah phm ok...aku buat guna fwenste sebab mok promote blog tok. iklan bah. =p

anywayz...saw him at da front office. edeh...cute lik jak!! huehue...nya nego aku, p buat2 xdengar jak. malu doe! *blush*

umh...tok dah hari ke-2 kmk urg xbekontek. wakaka...malas mok lalek hal nya gik. nyakit ati jak mun pedulik ngan urg gya. xngenang budi!! dating lah kau cya ngan suma mpuan kat atas muka bumi tok! aku xeran!! k lah...aku mok g tusyen fizik tokz. weyh mal! boh ko palat aku gik! aku escape klas pun ko pdh ngan satu dunia! cess...

Thursday, April 14, 2005

...crazy...

Tell me what's wrong with society
When everywhere I look, I see
Young girls dying to be on TV
They won't stop till they've reached their dreams

Diet pills, surgery
Photoshopped pictures in magazines
Telling them how they should be
It doesn't make sense to me

Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on?
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something is wrong

I guess things are not how they used to be
There's no more normal families
Parents act like enemies
Making kids feel like it's World War III

No one cares, no one's there
I guess we're all just too damn busy
And money's our first priority
It doesn't make sense to me

Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on?
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something is wrong

Is everybody going crazy?
Is everybody going crazy?

Tell me what's wrong with society
When everywhere I look I see
Rich guys driving big SUVs
While kids are starving in the streets

No one cares
No one likes to share
I guess life's unfair

Is everybody going crazy?
Is anybody gonna save me?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on?
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something, something is wrong

Is everybody going crazy?
Can anybody tell me what's going on?
Tell me what's going on?
If you open your eyes
You'll see that something is wrong

wah...kacaknya lagu towk!! go simple plan! go pierre! go chuck (muax~)! go david! go jeff! go sebastien! ARRGGHHH!!! Aku mnat gla ngan ktkurg!! =p

tgh mlm tadik, bgn dari tdo alu terus nangis. xtauklah pahal. pasya aku sambong tdo balit. cam xda papa yg belaku. wakaka...apa ndak reti...

Wednesday, April 13, 2005

...aku, dia dan coklet...

warghh! sungguh panasnya hati ini! marek aku dpt tauk nya jogging ngan "kakak angkat"nya. n nya xmsg aku lansung n pdh nya jogging ngan sapa. n aku pnah ingt gik nya pnah mdh xkan kua ngan mpuan lain TANPA pengetahuan aku. n stauk aku "kakak angkat"nya ya mpuan. n nya kua jogging ngan mpuan ya. n nya xplain ngan aku yg nya lpk nak msg aku. n aku pun eran, masok akal kah alasan ya?? n sedangkan aku ada miskol nya ptg ya. n gne nya boleh lpk tntg aku? n wakaka...aku dah nait muak ngan perangey nya. janji mcm2 you!! tapi sigek pun xpnah nya tepati. udahlah...malas mok komen gik. senang glak nak njangka urg laki ya...seminit tok nya pujok rayu. seminit lekak ya, kua joging dgn mpuan lain. AHAX!! typical urg laki. BLAH la lu!!! mun agik perangey gya, x aku eran nak melepas!!!!

Tuesday, April 12, 2005

...screams, sights and scars...

Heard a different version of "Scars" by Papa Roach. The only difference is dat...nya xda dat screaming part "but u didn't understand!!" at the 'echo' part. aok...yajak. Dats the only difference. Still, I like the original one better. Hmmhh...kacak lagu ya owh. Jadi ringtone aku dgn Antonia. Yeah...bestfren aku mun maok kaka tentang Papa Roach, Tonia lah. Apa jak mek 2 ya...xda keja lain. Aku syg Papa Roach...blabla...Papa Roach syg aku...blabla...aku suka scars...blabla...scars suka aku...blabla...ahax. Yalah topik mek 2. Nama gik peminat setia Papa Roach! Yeah! Papa Roach ROX DA SOX!!!!!!

Saturday, April 09, 2005

still??

umh...friendster pun dah nyedia pekhidmatan molah blogs? uh duh! absolutely not interested. aku dah molah nguna blogger.com tok gus gk n nya simple n senang mok manage. aku cuma mok blog yg simple gtok xpelu engkah gamba or wut so ever...gkpn blog tok sebenanya tempat k aku share everything bout me wit my frenz...n anybody out there lah yg interested. apa d ngerepak aku tok? huh...kesimpulannya, aku ingga jak nangga frenste molah gya.

today iz...AZIM'S BIRTHDAY!!!!! Yahoo! syg ajim! syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg syg ajim....dah 3 taun dah syg eh.

gne2 pun...everytime nya bgn pagi, xmiss kakinya tas palak urg. cara tdo yg cilaken. nyakit ti da jak.

Friday, April 08, 2005

...boys, sex and cigarettes...

ahaha...definitely my favourite topics!! mun nak kaka benda gtok, knak la carik kwn2 yg sama palak. n salunya aku ngagak leon n da gang. wakaka...coz daknya nang "amat berpengetahuan" dlm bidang ya. =p seriously, aku cukup suka kaka tentang tiga igek benda tok. y?? coz...it's every girl's fav thingz lar! admit it lah gurlz...my opinion on:

#boys- err...dun expect sumting different! they r all cute =p. aku suka yg kulitnya gelap, mata sepet, ego ckit (ckit jakk), pande bersukan, tauk main BASKETBALL (plg utama!), kuat (bkn rasa kuat), tinggi dari aku, mesti kenja (kenja dgn aku jak!! jgn ngan mpuan lain!!), ada cita2 (bkn nak type xda arah tuju lam idup), penyayang, romantik, setia dgn aku, berani, syg glaaa dgn aku. ya jak. setakat tok...lom gik nemu urg laki gya. ahaha...guess we can't have everything eh?

#sex- uhmm...never had sex. but i wana try it b4 getting married! ahax! God...no lah. bedosa tauk x?? grr...but kadang2 susah maok kawal dirik...especially bila urg laki yg stat ngulu. shyt! nang susah...nang susah...but anywayz, aku mok komplen skejap. lam kelas aku, byk lik gangguan seksual. ish! cdak ya...ckit2 mok buli miak mpuan. tarit ya tarit nun, raba atas raba bawah, selak tapih...mcm2. dahla rame2...cibay na...kecyan aku dgn sapa2 yg jadi bini cdak klak. kuikui...

#cigarettes- ahh...rokok...huehuehue. got caught doin it once. kat skolah. mcm urg lain juak...knak ntam bpk, gya juak aku. shyt! dahla best mokok ya...ecstasy bodo!! ARGGHHH!!! Aku maok dunhill!!!! tapi nak...aku x merokok lagik knektok. atas nasihat urg yg syg ngan aku n aku pun syg ngan urg ya, aku pun stop smoking. do anything 4 him lah. and how i wish dat he wud do anything 4 me...all i wan is 4 him 2 b loyal...

Monday, April 04, 2005

My 16th Burfday!!

4 Apr 2005

Waa...040405. Genap 16 thn.Huehue...k, here's my reflection of life after 16 years living on the bloody planet. =p! As u all noe,I will (seriously) feel offended bila ada urg mdh "aepy bday 2 u Mas!". 2 me, urg ya seolah2 menyindir "alamak! tua nyer nkau!". argh! damn u! of coz la i keep this 2 meself.but this year, it's different! I realize that we can't stay young forever (finally growing up huh?). ntahla...dolok aku nang gya.xpat accept the fact that we're getting older each waking day. aku bencik jd tua! btw ,sapa yg suka jd tua rite?so now i've learned that we gotta move on n honestly, i USED 2 get jealous of cdak2 yg lebih mudak drpd aku...which is 2 me now seems pretty immature. I've made some MAJOR 'mistakes' that need not 2 b mentioned as it will shamed me 2 death. But u do get the pic...typical malay student lah...telibat in this n that. well, aku tdk terkecuali lar. One reason y we do those "things". Admit it lah guyz...we thought we looked cool. When i looked back now, nampak menjelikkan. NYESAL?? Oh tdk! langsung xda rasa kesal molah benda gya. it's experience n ya mendewasakn. buat apa nak nyesal? benda ya dah telajak...pengalamn gtok la yg nyuruh kta behati2 lenkali. wut happened today was vewy embarrassing. emiziana n syafiqah merik hadiah n ngucap aepy bday ngan aku. n i was like "wut da fcuk??" lam ati jaklah. bukankah nya 2 tok mangsa buli aku?! yg aku bencik, selak n ntam everyday. apa knak lah nya 2 bait ndah ngan aku. senyum2 jak, mntak maap ngan aku ndah. zue alu njelin (huhu), nysa nyinde aku...aku nang dah nebeslah juak. malu lik jak dpolah nya 2 gya. muka adam dah lain dah nangga aku...tekisin2. nak nyelak aku la ya...ceh...so trimak jaklah. bebait2 lah mek 3 tek. huh...wut-so-ever-lah...

nywayz....xlamak gik ary sukan. yahoo! xda blaja! lak aku ngan ema mok pegi stadium ngegeh2 lak. haha! diat lah jak olah mek 2. yeah so guyzz...c ya there!!!! muex~

Saturday, April 02, 2005

yahoo!

yeah! my favourite time of da year! bulan april lah. kuikui...y?? duh?? sebab birthday aku jatuh pada bulan tok. 4th of april gik ya. wahh...syok!

anywayz...boring ari tok ehs. bpk aku paksa tusyen kat pusat bimbingan karya. cilaken mena...dahla principal dikpun ngajar. rasa urg pandey jak aku dudok lam bilit ya. maca newspaper lok...kakya molah karangan. nang kimak menar lah. huh! mun ujian ahe taun tok aku maseh dpt markah 30 lebeh, hah! xku eran...

anak kesayangan aku, ajim kecik yg ngek...cam biasa. mek duak salu klayi. nya salu mok rampas eskrem aku. aku pun salu ngempas bantal rah nya. nya salu nigak aku n madah "bod-ddo Mas!" n aku salu ngepongnya kelilin rumah...mulut celupar! ngegeh anak betuah ya! bangun pagi setiap ari, sik miss kakinya tas palak urg. gaya tdo jaik lik. wargghhh!!!! tensyen ada anak gya. ya ktk urg...sik bagus ada anak awal gilak. nengok aku...balit skolah terus melayan miak kecik ya...kertas karangan bm ku dbisaknya (kali nya sik suka nangga aku dpt 33% kali...) buku kerja add math aku diconteng pake kaler luna (alu kenak demerit aku...)...pendek kata, ada anak masa zaman skolah tok nang sik bagus... (far! weyh mas! kazen aku yar...jaga ckit) aish...ilek lah farah...xda pnah aku "ndera" anak betuah ya. kuikui...arghh...apa jak lah...

Tuesday, March 29, 2005

...satu cerita tentang...

deleted some of my posts 2 dcrease la the size of diz blog. sak senang nak load. anyway...aku ngamok ngan nisa ngan pipot ngan zharip aritok...tanpa sebab. tensyen sebenanya...lamak gilak pendam, alu meletup. kebetulan cdak 3 ada rah tepi aku, alu knak tempiaslah. wakaka...jarang lik nak nangga aku bekelakuan gya. xpnah dalm sejarah aku ngadu ngan urg pasal problem aku. masalah aku, biar aku yg tanggung dikpun. jgn nak nambah beban kat urg lain gik. ya la prinsip yg aku bepegang teguh dgn. then dgn xsengajanya, aku break down. tapi cuba mok thn lah. pipot alu nasihatkan aku, mun aku rasa nak nangis, nangis jak. jgn dthn2. nisa mdh lain...mun aku nak ngamok, ngamok jak. jgn dthn2. huehue...aku ngamok lak...ada yg tekorban pulang. pasya, aku trus xda mood nak blaja or beguro or nak ngatik urg. cam mayat idup jaklah aku kat skool ritok tek. zharip tyk aku pahal...lamak skool kat kolej tok nya xpnah nangga aku murung glak. aku pun crita everything ngan nya. Usher nenga skali. suma tok pasal aXXXX. aku tensyen pasal nya. bkn hal skolah. sakit ati tauk x...axxxx ya dah cukup menyakitkan ati aku. aku mok lepas darinya...tapi xtauk gney. stiap mlm nangis, napa reti gya?? b4 betemu dgn nya, ingt gik aku betapa bahagya nya dirik tok. knektok rasa cam knak permain. sakit jiwa bila tauk nya ngan mpuan sial pj2...or wut so ever. xphm2 lagik kah nya ya?? aku mampu bahagya kan nya IF nya janji xmenduakkan aku. tok x, gereknya dikpun nyuruh aku berambus. dari mulutnya dikpun mdh nya ada pengganti aku. sapa x rasa nak terjun menara petronas?? xtauk juak aku gney selamak tok aku dpt ditipu dgn mudah...dgn mulut manis axxxx ya. but yg pasti...aku xkan terimaknya balit. hubgn mek 2 xkan jadi cam dolok. xmungkin sebab aku dah cukup jerak dgnnya yg pandey nipu cya cnun. buat masa tok...aku besama dgnnya. nangga jak gney perangey nya. jgn sampey aku ilang sabar jak lah...lepas ya, xkan aku ingt balit mukanya. xkan aku nyesal nak break ngan jantan gya...xkan wujud giknya lam idup aku

Monday, March 28, 2005

...antara ada dan tiada...

everything was fine today...untill "X" mdh ngan aku tentang "S". argghhh!!!!! nendak aku xsenang dudok leh nya. X mdh, nya knektok begerek ngan S. Nya muji2 S bait, kiut, bla bla bla...sampey aku pun naik angin. tapi nahan ati jaklah. gney2 pun...aku xpat nak manas ngan X. Salah aku juak dari mula bah...Ejan alu nanyak pahal aku nampak lain jak. ceritala aku ngan nya tek. (nasib farah xda nangga mek 2 =p). dolok...time aku gik pom 1, S dgn aku rapat gilerrr!! bepaluk, betampa suma2 ya lah. aku anggap nya sebagai adik jak. tapi...xjuak aku sangka. lamak2 mekurg bekwn gya, S nya nyimpan rasa suka ngan aku. one day, nya terus terang dgn aku tentang perasaan nya. aku naik berang laa...bencik n takut!! so, aku stat sumpah seranahnya, caci maki sampey nya nang xberani nak nego aku lagik. aku xmok nerimak S sebab nya mudak setaun dari aku. wkt ya seramlah juak rasa aku nak...bila ada miak laki molah kita gya. sampey ari tok tek, baruklah aku nenga kabar berita S. jealous?? err...xlah. buat apa nak jealous?? lagikpun X ya kwn bait aku eh...xsampey ati ku nak mdh crita lamak aku ngan S dgnnya. but anyway...nya 2 nang ngenak. budak baik sama budak baik. =) huh...

2005...no luck 4 Aries in her love life. wakaka...xlalek. aku nak konsentret ngan add math aku. fuh...akan ku buktikan dgn Rosmeela, aku pun seterer Kak Intan and Kak Ena aku (of cozla aku naik bengang! asyik Kak Ena aku jak dpuji nya...warrgghhh!!!!).

setiap ku melihatmu
ku terasa dihati
kau punya segalanya
yang aku impikan

kenanganku tak henti
sajak tentang bayangmu
walau ku tahu
kau tak pernah anggap ku ada

ku tak bisa menggapaimu
takkan pernah bisa
walau sudah letih aku
tak mungkin lepas lagi!
kau hanya mimpi bagiku
BUKAN untuk jadi nyata
dan segala rasa buatmu
harus padam dan berakhir

kau selalu, ku rasa hadirmu antara ada dan tiada

Saturday, March 26, 2005

...things i don't always talk about...

owh boring! boring! so utk mengisik masa lapang, aku pun layar lah suma web yg ada kat atas muka bumi tok. wakaka...anyways, accidentally found this shit on the web. and i was like, hell, y not fill them in...cis...pathetic sungguh! but anything 2 kill time lar...so here goes...

real name: Mas Nur Aizzat
date of birth: 04041989
place of birth: NMC, kuching
education: Tadika Bina, M.D.H.A.K.H, Kolej D.P.A.H Abdillah (now in 4sc4 '05)

siblings: 5...all girls and I'm da 4th one.
sister(s): 3 older sisters and a younger sister
brother(s): None...damn! Wish I have an abg! Dpt k aku klayi, betumbok, kongsi cd bf... *sigh*
in my family, i'm...: The black sheep n owez stands out from the bloody crowd...get it??
my relationship wif my cousins...: Ntah...yg tinggal dekat dgn aku kira rapt lah juak. Yg kat negara lain ya...hah! Nama pun ku xingt. Kuikuikui...

hobbies and interests: Journalism, music, drumsz, Cikgu Su Sieu Fong, loya2, kayo2, manas2, nangis2...and my only anak, Ajim!
a movie u liked best: Sepet! (Definitely! Knak support la the Malaysian Film Industry)
a band u liked best: The Used! Y?? Duh?? Obviously they make good music
a song u liked best: Err...at the moment, I like 'Scars' by Papa Roach. (Damn! Cney daknya ada idea molah lagu ya??)
a movie u regreted seeing: The Grudge (God...no further comment)
a band u think sux, big time: Ruffedge, VE, Phyne Ballerz (Owh...was it 'a'? Well...ada byk band yg aku rasa "sux, big time". Ahax...definitely Ruffedge!)
a deafening song: Any songs by Reshmonou (Shyt! Anak sapa ndak ya ka?? Xguna lik idup! Nyakit tlinga aku jak!)

fav girl celebs: Paris Hilton, Lindsay Lohan, Christina Aguilera, Reese Witherspoon, Nicole Kidman, Natalie Portman, Natalie Imbruglia, Amy Lee of Evanescence and Kikan of Cokelat (Indonesian band).
fav guy celebs: Ashton Kutcher, Mike Shinoda, James Marsden, Ben Affleck, Jude Law, Josh Lucas, Shane West, Johnny Depp and Rangga Y Harez (Cinta Terbagi Lima).

worst moment in life: Get caught ******* when I was 14. Shyt! Dad went real mad...I swear I'm not going 2 get caught again doing it... (Hahaha...never promised not 2 do it again)
sweetest moment in life: Whenever our eyes met diz world iz like heaven! (Him and I lah...)

my 1st crush is...: Eh?? Rahsia ar...huehuehue...
it started when...: Aku simbah nya ngan air mineral and he got mad and screamed at me. Damn! I would give anything 2 get him screaming at me again!
and now we r...: I dunno...not frenz neither enemies. Juz...not talking 2 each other *sigh*
the real reason i like him is: Seriously, nyalah lelaki petama yg nerais aku. N it was at that time the bloody cupid shot me.
he is...: Taller (a bit) than me, tanned, very good-looking and a sportsman.
i think...: He's way 2 good 4 me...arghhh...

been in love?: Yah...lotz of time...but sumer nye cinta monyet! Wakaka...
got hurt by love: Yah...lotz of time...but xpnah serik2!
whenever we breakup...: It's always me who started it...hahaha...I am an extreme penjeles! Wakaka...
my longest relationship wif a guy...: Is with Leon...I think. But we r good fwenz now!
we 1st met...: In a fwenz house (Eritz). Cdak jamming kat bilit atas. Aku nengar sora yg cukup merdu ngembak lagu Drops Of Jupiter. Apa gk...tepegun n dot dot dot...tauk sendirik lar...
he was...: 3 years older than me. A hottie wif chinese looks, skaterz, and sings so damn well! Sora yg cukupppp...memikat! Ecstasy in short (" ,)
n now...: We're over. Only fwenz lah.
rite now, i'm wif...: No comment
we 1st met...: No comment
i like him bcoz...: No comment
had sex: No comment


at school, i have...: More enemies than fwenz (My fwenz r suma miak pom 4 n my enemies r suma miak pom 1,2,3 n 5)
my best fwenz r...: Shidot, Miezah, Nyssa, Far, Faz, Shaf, A-key, Patricia@Pinky and Sue.
my best gurl fwenz: All of the above, Nate, Zue, Tonia, Pipot, Deyna n Dedek.
my best guy fwenz: Zharif (ngek!), Adam (ngek!), P-ko, Ejan, Shin Chan, Adu, Usher, Hafizul n Farid.
i want 2 meet...: Kengkawan aku yg dah bepindah randah. Kinsay@Kins, Francis Fideleo@Leo/Slay/Neo (prasan!), Patricia@Pat, Wilston@Wils and my best buddy time pom 2, Victor Augustine@Vic/Vicky. Misz them so damn much!
my teachers...: Sux, big time! Except Cikgu Norlia, Cikgu Haron n Ah Fong@Su Sieu Fong
my fav teacher: Ah Fong@Su Sieu Fong
my fav subjects: Definitely Biology!
when in class...: I tend 2 ignore the teachers n do my own stuff and which sometimes, drives Chin Lee San@Ah San beserk! "Mas!!!"

things about me not so many people knew 'bout: Well...I err...wut owh?? Ntah! Nothinglah...

Friday, March 25, 2005

Rangga Y Harez!

damn! ensemnya urg laki tok! yah...like everyone else lah, aku berebut nangga tv dari isnin-jumaat kol 2.30ptg. shit! ensem sehensem ensemnya! cuba aku tek yg jd nadia vega! huh! akan ku ambil kesempatan terhadap lelaki itu...wakaka...

Thursday, March 24, 2005

Clips!

cdak kc's molah clip, pengambaran stat 3aribln arya tek aku xpat dtg. bz giler!! nasib atey pandey mujok roy. huehuehue...aku harap ko xmanas la ngan aku roy...bkn salu aku gya. jgn mare!! =p ~muahXXXmuah~

Wednesday, March 23, 2005

23? Unlucky number or wut??

Urgh...so many things happened today! i feel like screaming! i knew it all along. he's so predictable! ARGHHH!!!!! BENCIKNYA!!!

Monday, March 21, 2005

Something i wish would kick jo's butt

(Feb 2003)

Eritz was nervous. Joanda yg dtunggu2 dari tadik xjuak sampey. *sigh* if only i noe dat sumting like diz would happen. den dat bloody jojo wouldnt get da bloody chance 2 shamed him 2 death. huh... "Mas, ney nya neyh??" xtauk. wut makes u think aku tauk? "But i thought u were at anip's house. apahal la ktkurg turun pisah2?? tok sorg pun xtauk gney nak kontek jojo. mn papa jadi mati kta dkerja..." hah...statla nya koh... "weyh kau dengar x?" relax arr...gikpun aishah mok gilak aku pegi ngan nya tek. aishah ok...xkn la kta nak nolak nak? "aishah? hah...mana2 lah. p aku bingong nangga Eritz tok. lain lik upa. cam bila2 jak bleh meletup..." err...haha. yalah. sapa nyuroh nya ngambik jojo...

30 minutes later jojo maseh juak lom dtg. Tmpt ya dah mula penuh ngan urg...waduh! sesak banget! nothing 2 do, aku pun ngagak Eritz. weyh, give up la...nya xkn dtg pun. cancel jak. "Huargh!! geram ehs..." wakaka...rilex man. bkn byk kau rugi pun. huehue... "aih eh...nang ade gya. mpuan ya ngesak ti lik jak." ya kau...aku dah mdh ambik razak p ko pilih jojo. "huh..." wut...pahal nangga aku gya gilak... " kuikui...xda papa. listen Mas, y not u take her place?" holy wut? her place? "aoklah ngek! tlglar...tedesak siot eh. iboh malu2 bah. bkn d kch pun tok. neyda urg tauk juak." woii!! skati lik jak! "ok kah x??" isk...isk...aku tok... "boleh x Mas?? boleh la ok?" err...mun aku, aku mok Layar Impian Ella. ok x? "Hah? owh...k lah. apa2 jak. makseyh coz tlg aku k. gya urg!" ceh...weyh! apa tuk?? "muahs~" eww...yuck. pegilah blakang nun! shuh! "edeh...eh..." ngek!

the next thing i noe, i was up there...wah...hard 2 believe. diz was supposed 2 b jojo's moment, not mine. but watever lah nak. sapa nyurohnya xdtg. wakaka...harap2 lah cdak tok sporting belaka. hmmhh...ehh?? wah...sapa ya? kiut nya. uikss...xleh gya. fokus...fokus. hisy, kompom skaterz tok...tinggi gik ya, edeh...manis lik senyum. Mcm pernah ku lihat tapi d mana ya? kwn Eritz ka nya tok? hmmh...knak rasa cam familiar owh...ah! xlalek. yg pntg nya kiut...wakaka...huh?? errkk?? LEO?? wut r u doing here?? "I should ask u da same question... *wink*" Damn....

Sunday, March 20, 2005

Wut people say about me!

#panas baran- Mas tok, nang cpt meletup. Xkira...dgn kwn rapatnya pn dteraisnya. P mekurg dah tauk gney nak nyejok atinya balit. Sebut jak 'amy'. Hah!! Bekuklahnya. Kalah aiskrim ehs!
MC: Eh?panas baran ka aku? neyda! xngakuk!

#ngegeh- Honestly, Mas SIK ngegeh! TAPI!! Mn ada nembiak yg menyakitkan atinya xkira laki ka mpuan, statla nya ber'ngegehen'. Nyakit ati da jak. Kalah sondal.
MC: Woii!! Pucimak lu!

#cpt salah phm- Sikapnya yg suka nuduh urg tanpa soal siasat telah menyebabkn kedinginan antara nya ngan Adam. Kuikui...adam bisit2 ngan Far, nangga Mas alu tetak2.Mas apagk...alulah xgeng Adam.Sak jak Adam ngek eksen2 jak...
MC:Huh! sapa nyuroh Adam gya...nak salah phm aku!Tp aku nang gya.Hahaha...skati nuduh urg. Hahaha!

#mulut celupar- Bila nyatok kaka, nang main lantak jak.Apa lam ati suma klua,xda tapis2 gk.Byk urg kecik ati ngan nya (patut ko byk musuh mas owh!)Tp bg sesiapa yg dah masak gler ngan perangenya,xkn ambik ati. Suma dah tauk, mas nang gya.
MC:Uhuk...uhuk...Aku stuju!

#suka anok urg- Mun ktkurg nak nganok urg, jgn lah lupk nak narit anak betuah tok skali. Mulutnya yg xda insurans adalah senjata yg plg kuat n mampu melumpuhkan musuh (kata cacian yg ktkurg xpnah nenga, klua dari mulutnya. huh! cney ko blaja Mas??) n kemenangan djamin berpihak kpd geng ktkurg.Tol x Mas?
MC:Cyo...nang claka abisla mulut aku tok owh...sampey gya skali ko komen...

#sombong- at 1st sight, Mas nang nampak sombong nak matey leput.Kau lok knak negonya...nya xkan nego urg dolok. Mn dah lmk knal, oklah juak nyatok.Sombong time 1st jumpa jak.Ntah apa d pk nya...
MC:Aku no comment.

#congek- Haa!! tok rame urg xtauk! Mas tok nang congek siot! Kalah anaknya si Ajim ya.Cikgu Zahrah narit tlinganya time nangga result bm pmr nya pn alu nangis run2.
MC:Wekkk!!!! neyda ku congek! kau mena...

#kuat jeles- er...tahap kecemburuan yg ckup TINGGI. Gereknya jak yg tauk. Huehue...even dgn Ajim pn nya nak jeles! Cth cam ariya, Ajim mkn aiskrim.Nya nangga alu ngerepak ngan mama...nya tek maok juak. Mama xlalek ngannya...Mas apa gik. alu drampasnya aiskrim miak kecik ya.huh!nang apa la kau tok Mas...xpat gik aku nak komen apa2...
MC:Aih...neyda ku kuat jeles...skati jak kau...

#pelawan- hmmhh...tok aku rasa suma urg yg knal ngan Mas pun tauk...mpuan tok rebellious. kdg2 benda nak xmasok akal pn nya bangkang.cthnya,nya klayi ngan cikgu Andrew pasal kepersisan dan kejituan. ya nabi ya tuhan...nang udah teorinya gya nelah kau nak ngubah owh...huh! pasya, klayi ngan chin lee san@ah san persilangan dan kesatuan set dlm gambarajah venn. alasannya, sebhgn dari set C terlorek skali. ah! mana kata kaulah cya...
MC:Neda aku salah...aku salu betol bah! Huh!!

**MC = My comment

I dun give a 'fcuk' bout wut they say

Thursday, March 17, 2005

...insap...

bgn awal pagi. huarghh!! huh! apakah benda ini?? cis!! anak sialan! aku pun ngempas bantal rah Ajim. Nya bgn alu nangis. Ya kau...sapa nyuruh engkah kaki tas muka aku. Tdo cam apa jakk! Dah! Diam gik! Boh nak mengada2 nangis gya...aku simbah ngan aik sejok bok tauk!

kat skolah, cam biasa. aku lupak bawak kunci pintu blakang. huehue...jgn marah p-ko! huh...masa add math, Rosmeela masok klas cam besa. Den tang da jak nya nunggah Nate, Tonia, Deyna, Shaf, Nyssa, Pipot, Zue ngan Far. 8urg yg eskep klasnya ari marek. shin chan nangga aku. "aih?? Ko xpegi dpn Mas? kompom cikgu lupak nak nyebut nama kau!" chibay...aku xhadir marek la. bujat ko ya! asal muka aku tok nang muka salah la! Rosmeela pun melecture cdak. mula2, aku anggap xda papa jak. dedek gik tetak2 ndah. shin chan yg ngek ya bejalan ke tmpat pzul mnjam ya mnjam nun. Muka Rosmeela dah berubah, aku pun nebeslah juak. dedek aih! cikgu gik manas ya! "aih, xda papa bah." den cigu yg tadiknya klaka slow2 tiba2 jak meletup. "Bencikk! Mun cikgu dah bencikk ngan anak murid gney?? 8 urg eskep, sapa xsakit ati?" fuh...xpnah ku nangga nya ninggi sora kdak tok glak. Soranya pun dah berubah...cam nak break down jak cikgu tok. Den, xjuak d espectlah...nya tiba2 ngempas beg atas meja. Kuat bunyi nya, sampe tediam kmk urg suma. dedek nang tekejut lah...aku alu nangis ckit. jaik ati nangga Rosmeela gya, matanya dah berair jak. then nya nyuruh cdak 8 dudok tmpt masing2, awal mdh xmok urg mntak maap dgnnya. nya pun klua dari klas. kmkurg sorg nangga sorg...suma xsangka Rosmeela manas gya. Wkt ya aku dah mula insap...xmok plente gik. ambik serious dgn study...n bila SPM klua klak, add math ku bagus, Rosmeela lah urg petama yg aku agak...

Wednesday, March 16, 2005

At first sight he was...

I remebered everything on that day. 1st day of skool 2003. ceh...boring siot. aku klas 2b, sama ngan miezah n pat. xda papa juaklah ariya. kelas resume cam biasa, n kmkurg knak cikgu bm baru, Arifah Bujang. Ciss...skati njelin aku...sa cakk! time balit wkt ya maseh gik 1.40...(waa...rindue putit ped!). Abis skolah, aku trus merepuk dirik tas katil. Xlmk kakya Emma ngajak g umah Eritz nangga cdak jamming. aku on jak. anything 2 kill time. Sampey cya aku nangga byk keta parking rah luar umahnya. owh shit! mun aku tauk rame urg tek xdalah aku ngekot Emma. ceh...but den dah telajak. masok jaklah. Cdak jamming d atas lam bilit Eritz...bodo lik urg laki ya...bilit tdo jd studio. suma complete lam ya...sigek jak x. nya xda katil. tmpt k nya tdo hanya tilam tas lantey dgn cadar putih, sigek bantal n selimut...hah. yajak. ceh...nama gak bilit tdo p xda katil.

cdak d atas main lagu2 nak aku pun xtauk band ney yg embak. aku kat bwh tok main resident evil jak. ceh...slipknot ka ya? bodo ah slipknot! lagu xda rentak lalu...lirik xda makna...band sampah! eksen lik suka nenga lagu slipknot...bunyi bisin cam radio rusak ya cool la tek? ganas la tek? kuat la tek? best la tek? ceh...aku nerais cdak -Woii pucimak!!! Cuba udah gik main lagu ya boleh x???- pasya, alu tang ada senyap jak. eh? kuat ka sora aku? huehue...hebat juak. then aku nenga cdak tetak2 leput. chibay...tok kompom ngumpat aku tok! hah! mana kata ktkurg la cya! emma nangga aku. "aih, ilek ar Mas. aku nait ngagak cdak lok" hmmh...

xlamak kakya, ada bunyi bisin balit. cdak main lagu nak aku suka, Drops Of Jupiter. haha...nak nyejok ati aku kali. kuikuikui...Ish...ya rabey eh...bapa urg ndak ka cdak lam bilit ya? huh...ehh? sora sapa ya? waa...kacak juak. aku alu nait atas n baruk jak nak mukak pintu, Eritz dah mukak dolok dari dlm. "Hai Mas...tepikat owh... *wink*" ceh! tepi kau! sapa yg nyanyi ya?? Eritz xnjawab. aku nangga Emma yg tgh main piano. Nya senyum jak ngan aku. Kazen aku, Aman yg main gitar pun tetak2 nangga aku. cibay...pa knak dak tok. aku nangga miak nak nyanyi ya. huh? chinese?? cney ndak Eritz mutit nyatok ka? aku nenga jak sampey lagu ya abis. fuh...bleh tahan anak cina tok. "gney Mas? hebat owh...weyh...nenga x?? edeh...hebat sampey x tekata eh!" ceh...diamla... "Kuikuikui...well Leo, nampaknya sora kau telah memikat miak kecik tok. Aku xpat nak komen papa gik...juz wanna say...WELCOME 2 DA CLUB!" huh?? wut? he's our new vocalist? Eritz senyum jak "Aku tauk ko mesti trimak punya..." hmmhh...skati lik Eritz tok. tauk2 jak aku akn trimak. err...wut was his name again...isk...lupak ehs. owh aok...Leo...

Friday, March 11, 2005

My luverly baby boy, Ajim!

Hey guyz! Check out my profile in fwenste! ahaha...miak kecik ya is Ahmad Azim bin Amzari. My only son!! haha! aku syg giler dgn Ajim! nyalah buah hati intan payung aku. aduhhh...

Azim tok mulut cerdit siot! dah pandey nganok urg... cthnya: "bodd-do...Ijoy!" . dh la nunggah aku 'Mas'! krg hajar! tunggah la mama owh! huh...pasya. bila mlm, tdo ngan Azim tok nang menyeksakn! ndak alah2 nigak aku! kta gk dsepak trajang! ish...tensyen aku tdo ngannya! bla ngembak nya jln ke shopping complex, xpat lepas!! abis suma anak urg nak dpeloknya! (mpuan la). kecik2 dh kenja. p nya tok rapat ngan Yana. mn cdak 2 bejumpa, dpegang nya pipi Yana, tgn Yana. ihh...jgn gya syg! kazen ktk ya.

gney2 pn...xnesal aku ada anak awl2. haha! (far: woii mas!! itu sudah lebih!). walaupn mulutnya xda insurans...(cam mamanya juak) aku syg gilerrr ngan Azim!! Xda sebab lain...coz nya anak aku! yajakla...hah...

Wednesday, March 09, 2005

...flew back home...

at 1st aku nang xmok ekot sebenanya. crazy or wut?? the original destination was auckland not perth! "mun kau xmok ekot xboh! tinggal d umah jak. abis crita!" huh...dat iz 1 thing i hate bout my father. xbolehka nya dengar cakap aku skali ajak? grr...

maok xmaok, tepaksa juak pegi. nak tinggal d umah? no way! gkpn...pegi kat cya melawat uncle jak. rite? mama, gney ngan kak yani, kak ena n kak ikah? "kita 4 ajaklah pegi...cdaknya gk exam. xhal bah". so otel ney kta tinggal?? "wut hotel? u kidding? kat umah uncle lar". oh yah...i remember. umah kongsi uncle ryudi ngan bpk in manning street. aih mama! nakka boring! nakpa la nak dbuat seminggu2 kmk dcya? boleh mati apa... "eh! jgn nak mcm2! cdak kan ada neman ktk. klak daknya ngembak raon d cya" cdak ney?? "aish...dah lupak? ariszt, azif n anip." anip?? owh my god. how could I ever forget him?? huh...xsaba nak balit cnun...

Wednesday, March 02, 2005

...skill miak 4sc4...

paper sejarah stat lam 8.30 gya. soalan 28, bukti hbgn perdagangan Meso dgn Indus. Aishh...keliru ehs. mcm biasa, aku merik signal ngan zue. zue nunjok dahi. ah! A la ya...kuikuikui...best juak niru tok.

paper BI gik stat kol 12.00. fuh...susah juak. sapa ndak molah soklan tok ka? "izonot" ka azlina? huh!! xpat jadi tok. aku noleh blakang. cdak suma molah muka bingong. muka nate nang kdak dh mok nangis la...adam tetoleh-toleh rah antonia. aku nak signal ngan far p obey yg njaga klas...tkt knak tangkap. mn knak tangkap lak pecoma knak demerit 100. aish...tepaksala katok2 nunggu petukaran wkt.

40minit lekak ya, obey klua, cigu png pn masok. ahaha!! pluang sungguh! toleh blakang gik. xsampey seminit png masok, kmkurg dah besignal2 cam biasa. wakaka...sap ngan muka bingong nya nanyak aku tema the necklace. apa gik...berik jaklah kertas jwpn ngannya! "kimak! aku mntak jwpn, bkn ketas jwpn." huehue...pzul ngan shin chan ber-pas2 kalkulator. hek eleh...bemsg owh...cam aku xtauk!! BI neda pengiraan. antap glak... aku signal ngan zue jwpn...adam ngek pn gago nilit skali. nate ngan adu nang xlalek giklah...farid yg dudok dpn aku betikam kertas ngan usher. Cibai! jwpn ah?? xkongsi ngan aku! far merik liquid ngan antonia...liquid yg diselitkn...ah...phm2 ah! ada juakla beberapa org yg nang bait ati glak, dgn sengajanya ngugok brg2 kedak file ka, buku teks dari laci ka, gugok dari kerusi ka...sak cikgu merik perhatian ngan cdak. sementara nak lain ya boleh la besignal2. kuikuikui...pendek kata, sigek 4sc4 niru. best da...suma bekerja sama. mcm2 jak signal diberik...ada nak nukuk meja tiga kali, ngaruk palak, berpas2 pen or kalkulator or liquid ka, ngeceng mata ada juak...huh!! tedesak nak mampusss...masing2 tauk mn result xbagus...knak kick la jwpn nya...

Monday, February 21, 2005

...it was only a dream...

wah...ahenya, mok juak Chin Lee San@Ah San approve cdgn kta camping lam utan tok owh! tererla ko mujok nya Far! mun kta xngajak kwn baitnya Law Mea Tan@Ah Tan ngan Su Sieu Fong@Ah Fong ya skali...xkan nya nyuruh kta camping sekelas. "wakaka...tengokla sapa kta!" hek eleh...bok puji ckit... "mari! mari klas, cpt ckit lah. haiyaa...kamu yg ajak saya tapi kamu sendiri xsanggup lagi nak teruskan ye." huh?? ngerepak jak tauk Ah San tok! Cigu! Apa kata kta settle ctok? Dah jaoh kta masok lam utan tok cigu! klak sesat lak gney? "Mas!! Mulut xleh celupar agik ka? ingat ckit, kta lam utan ok!" huh?? owh...ok. kta lam utan. mulut xleh celupar!cheh...pake ajaklah sms! aku pun ngeluar tpon sms ngan Ah Tan -cigu, apa kata kta settle ctok jak cigu? kacak apa view tok weh- Ah Tan pun reply balit -haiyaa Mas! buat apa sms? Bknkah saya hanya di dpn, kenapa xtanya? sgt membazir!- huh!! yg ko reply juak pa sak??

10 minit gya...kmkurg pun settle down. Ah San stat ngarah cdak mpuan molah khemah n prepare k masak. dak laki dsuruh carik kayu api. hmm...aku laki ka mpuan owh? "weh Mas! ko cney? boh escape ndah. mun maok pun ajak aku skali doe!" eh? Far! Aku join cdak masok utan dalam gik ncarik kayu. boh pdh Ah San! wakaka...aku pun jln ngan dak Shin Chan, Adu, Farid, Zharif ngan Adam. daknya molah lawak bodo. huehuehue...aku pun tetak juak. huii...sungguh xbelapit daknya kaka. 30minit gya, tpon aku pun bebunyi. cewah...best na coverage Digi eh! -elo? Ah? Ya saya dgn daknya cigu. wat? Ah, ok.- Woi tak urg! Ah San manas doe, nya nyuruh kta balit cya knektok juak. Sampey cya, Ah San terus ngebom mekurg. "Kenapa lame sgt? kamu buat saye risau! Dan kamu, sgt nakal ha...kamu tu lelaki ka perempuan?" saya tomboy cigu! "kamu tak sepatutnya melanggar arahan saya! Kalau ade ape2 tejadi sape yg susah? Diri kamu sendiri!!" blablabla...ngerepak la ko sorg dirik cya...aku nak mandik sungei lok...

Mlm ya, mekurg molah campfire. Dudok lam bulatan. Oleh kerana Ah Fong ngan Ah San xthn nenga cita antu, 1pun xbence mukak cita. Sab ngajak nyanyi, so nyanyi la kmkurg rami2 mlm ya. Fuh...sib bait xhujan. mun x, kompom Usher knak panah kilat. AHAX!! Pko dgn aku main gitar. njoy la tek sampey 1pagi...Ah San, Fong n Tan suma dah masok tdo. Kmkurg pa gik, becrita antu, beguro, main monopoli ndah lam utan ya. tetak tebabak...lari puntianak nenga sora kmkurg. Ahe ckit gya...Nisa, Sab n Far pun sok tdo. dak lain sama juak. Adala sorg 2 gik tinggal. Pko tgh kol Dila. Cheh. Ejan nunggah aku. kakalah mek 2. Fulamak...besh eh. mun Far, Nisa ngan Sab tauk, kompom aku knak sula! ekeke... "jarang kta ada pluang nak gtok eh." nyalah...sib juak Ah San maok nyuruh kta sekelas g ctok. "Aok oh. ish...kacak na mlm tok eh. Diat ya...manyak kali bintang." huh??binatang?? ney? oh bintang! Aduhh...aok owh. kacak bintang. (apsal la nko ckp pasal bintang? tukala topik lain!) Aduhaii... "pahal aduhai?" ah? xda papa. hehe. punyala pemalu nya tok! emh...Jan, mek ada benda mok mdh ktk. "ha? apa ya?" wakaka...inilah pluang aku,em...sebenanya nak... "WOII!! Iza! bgn gk! Skolah doe!" huh? bukankah ya sora adik aku?? sejak bila ny pegi camping tok juak??? erkk? mcm penah ku lihat Mashi Maro ini...tapi dmana ya? laa...bilit?!! CHEH! Mimpi rupanya...@&%*~! ckiitt lgik tek eh....

Friday, February 18, 2005

...stupid halimah sahari...

masa xda cigu. kmk 4 meeting cam biasa. Ejan tang da nunggah aku. "Kta molah camping k sekelas juh!" yo...idea sapa tuk? best juak! "Yahh...best o! Kutip duit lok." wah! aku mok camping doe! dpt lak mlm2 molah camp fire, dudok lam bulatan,cita antu sama dirik. nyanyi2 ka,lak aku mawak gitar! Nate nyampok "Aok oh! mena juak. Best camping sekelas doe! mun Kinsay ada, genti best. Lmk da aku xnenga nya nyanyi ehs." Kinsay?? Waa...sa mok nangis pulang aku. Rindue ngan Kins eh. "Aih Mas, tdo lak gne? laki mpuan kah? kau tdo ngan aku ok!" pa ta Usher tuk! drpd aku tdo ngan kau gus ku tdo ngan Adu jak!! "edeh eh...boh nak kenjar tdo ngan Adu!" so bla mok camp? emh...1 April pn ok owh...

pg makmal bio. Shin Chan ngan Nisa gik bekepong2. beguro. romantik na nya 2 eh! huehue. loya dgn Zharif. "kau ngan Adam dah ok o..." Farah pn nyampok "eh jgn kau, tadik Mas dgnnya dah stat nak beguro cam biasa balit. cucok sana, cucok sini. Pajaklah tak 2 ya!" aih...biasa jak ya, kwn bah. Ney boleh klaie lmk2! xthn ok! "nyala ya ko!" huh! Pko pn molah announcement. "weyh klas 4sc4! nenga lok!ada bad news." ha?? napasak gik tuk?? "Kpd suma murid nak keputusan PMR nya xmemenuhi kriteria, brik surat tuk ngan mak bpk ktkurg sbg pejanjian yg markah subjek math n sains ktkurg ujian tok dpt A. mun x, knak kick dari kolej." wat?? Ah,nasib PMR math ngan sains ku A.Yahoo! ku xknak kick! klas pun statlah riuh. Byk urg knak brik surat ya. nasib aku x,fuh. "emh, Mas...tauk x, kau ngan Zharif gik tinggal." wat? pa ta kau tuk? "aku, Sab, Nisa, Adam, Nate, Ejan, Shin Chan knak brik surat eh. mun math or sains mekurg B ujian tok, nakka mekurg pindah skolah." ha? kau knak kah? "aoklah. geng kta kau ngan Zharif jak xknak." oh fcuk. fcuk man. glaka? "tok kehendak datin. xsuma antara kta dpt survive in science stream. PMR kau ngan Zharif ok. so tak 2 oklah." bullshyt datin tok, lom puaska nya nak mecah belahkn kta? kau, Sab, Nisa, Chan, Adam, Ejan...nak knak kick juak. apa gk nak tinggal k aku lak? Zharif dgn Adu ajak eh...Sab dah stat nangis. Far pn sama. Nisa beguro ngan Shin Chan. Iz dat 4 da last time? Adu pn mujok, "ilek bah, S'wak tok xbesa bah. klak kta jumpa agik." hahaha...Ejan, aku rasa nak, mun kta nak molah camping tok, better polah awal ckit...

Monday, February 14, 2005

...kidz...

huarghh...hmm...14 ari bln ehs. aku pn anta msg ngan kak ena "aepy b'day! cyan ktk o...makin tua eh. dah kedut2 dah muka!". haa...hari yg dinanti2kn. best ngentam Adam tok...gud moning mama! malas mok breakfast, mek g skolah lok k. bye!!

sok klas. empas beg. kuikuikui...tyk Adam pasal mpuan sial ya...Adam mdh nya sikda gerek. Weyh, ckp bena ckit, gerek kau nuduh aku mcm2! Dahla pom3, nyumpah aku gikk!! "Aku neyda gerek!" abiss?? sapala mpuan yg ngakuk diriknya gerek kau tek? Zue pun noleh blakang. Mena ndak Adam tok, takut aku nigak gereknya kali... "sumpah lilah.aku sikda gerek." huh?? mena tok?? jadi sapala mpuan yg sa dirknya cute dunia akhirat ya owh? grr...panasnya jiwa aku...huh!!

dah tgh ari gya....sap, nisa, far ngan aku pn meeting. huehue. sap mdh, "pahal Adam ya o? lain jak upa nya" lain?? ahaha! nya lekak d sound leh aku tek. nendak sikda mood. "kau tok mas eh...cuba siasat mena2 lok. ney tauk ya urg lain yg suka2 njual nama Adam!" aihh...upa mpuan ya mena glak bah nyumpah aku! "ko tauk sik mas, tek eh, Adam nanyak pahal ko tang manas2 nuduh nya skati. aku kcyan nangga muka nya eh!" huh?? pahal suma urg menyebelahi Adam tok? Weh Zharif, aku kah salah? "ko sik patut molah Adam gya. diat mukanya ya, muka bait ehh...muka innocent!" hek eleh...nyala ya...hmmmhhhh....aku kah salah? neyda...

Monday, February 07, 2005

...huh...

pg bilik guru nganta brg ngan cigu zahrah. aish...pahal c zahrah tok. nangga aku semacm jak. ait! pahal cigu! carik klayi ha? ehehe...xda bah cigu. main jak tek. cigu marah ngan saya ka? "bapa BM pmr awk tek?" huh?? ish...apala cigu tok! sensitif sungguh! "bapa dpt awk tek?? c kah d?" eh cigu...xdala gya glak. saya dpt b cigu. "hah!!dh saya mdh!! awk tok nang nyakit ati saya!" cigu zahrah alu narit tlinga aku. adeh! adeh! ampun cigu!! bkn saya sengaja mok dpt b cigu! "saya dh mdh awl dgn suma anak murid saya! sapa xdpt a BM pake pmr, jgn nuggah saya cikgu lagk! awk tok apa nak jd? hah?? anak iban ka melayu??" aih...ampun cigu! sebenanya...mak saya melayu cigu! bpk saya cina! saya omputeh cigu!! nendak bm saya terok! "aihh ehh!!!! jgn nak prasan! anak india d ajar saya pn dpt a bm! awk tok nang nya...saya ngajar d dpn awk klayi ngan francis d blakang nak! ya nama tulah ko..." aduhh...bisa nya.balit klas. p-ko dh bisin...mdh ngan satu dunia aku knak sound leh hjh zahrah. grr...geram ehs!! "nasib juak KH kau a mas oh! mn x...xdpt ku bygkn hjh seriah memalukan kau dpn dewan masa pehimpunan. ktkurg dh bejanji rya nak..." yalah! seriah ya nang sentiasa ncarik jln nak ngenak aku. apa ndak dosa aku ngan nya ka? xda pn aku merendek ngan anak bujang nya! huh!! skati jak xsuka ngan aku! "ko ya...mcm la xingt gik. time ko knak tangkap rya bah...stat ya nya xsuka ngan kau. ktk 2 nang bemusuhla owh...sampey knektok." huh...xlalek. mana katanya la cya...nak bencik ngan aku ka nak suka ngan aku. xlalek...

Friday, February 04, 2005

...sets me thinking, does anybody care...

bukak nyerin2 lagu 'scars' Papa Roach. Iyee...best eh! Bak ctok gitar! Aihh...gago juak kak yani eh. Tang drive jak cya! I'm pissed coz u came around. Y dun u juz go home! Roy, rakam lok. Ceh...best na lagu tok eh! "mas, ko knal ani pj?" pj? Pom 4 taun tok kah? Huh...taukk ku! aku BENCIKK ani! Huh!! Fuck ya b y t c h!
Kak, kmk gik ngembak keta. Sik penah mek rasa ngembak crv eh. "palak ko! Accident lak gney?? Aku lom puas idup ok??" aihh...pajak ah alu mati. Huh!! sampe skool. Jln trus sok klas. Waa...skolah doe. Cintanya aku ngan kolej tuk. Kuikuikui...

G dewan...ari penyampaian hadiah. Kuikuikui...ckitnya urg. Dudok kat tmpt ku dikpun. Hmmm...lamaknya majlis mok stat. Huh gelapnya! Bpk sapakah itu? Adruce pun nerais "aihh!! Itam na bpk dinesh!" ahax...aku pun tetak juak. Hmmm...ney bpk aku o? Nun nak?? Yea! Bpk ku dtg! Pak! Ctok! Ctok! Eh?? Laa...salah urg weyh... aduhh. Ney bpk tok? huh...sik dtg kot. Aku ambik hadiah pun nya sik dtg...

Thursday, February 03, 2005

...everyday routine...

hmmm...lupak bawak kunci. pintu blakang kelas sik pat bukak. Mpuan sial ya pun stat njelin aku. Pajak ah. Then mdm pun masok klas. "Buat keja dikpun! Aku bz!" yay! Ngajak nisa beloya...sap ngan far pun join skali. Tepaksa lah pusin kusi ke blakang. Loya...ustaz sok klas. Assalamualaikum...waalaikumussalam. baca doa..."haei ni ustaz nok uji kamu ade ulangkaji ke tidok." Mula2 Sap kenak tunggah...nasib bukan aku. Kakya giliran xxxx. Gikk sa ko! Sikpat jawab...tekisin-kisin...ahax...aku pun tetak leput... "tok tok tok...boleh saya jumpa ngan xxx?" huh?? Napasak pengawas tukk?? Muka sa cak...nang muka 'aku-benci-korang-semue' bak ctok surat ya! Pake aku kah?? Owh...sik...pake bapak ku...pko pun nanyak "weyh mas, apa kes??" diam la! pasya masa fizik gik...Andrew anak "tuut" masok. "keluarkan kertas graf" ahh? Kertas graf? Nok ney kertas graf tuk cigu? Aku sorg jak bawak...adukakis, pko ngan mendy pun molah muka seposen "mas, mintak kertas lok." Huh!! Napa di kepak Andrew tuk?? Pita detik...detik pita...sesaran...halaju ...diam cigu!! Aku nak smayang lok. Dah masok waktu! Sembahla meja...Rehat 20 minit. Shin chan...aku pesan dari kau lok. Nah 5 ringgit. "Mas, baki ambik aku ok? Leh sik?" sial...sikpat nangga duit ijo dikit..."weyh mas, aku make duit kau skali juak ah..." eh! Aok bah. Weyh chan, Y mesan "tuuut" sigek. Make duit aku haa...";oi! Ko dah siap laporan??" laporan ney gik tuk?? "sial...antap li lom molah ah...kimia doe..." aihh!! Bok teringat! Marek law mea tan dah narit tlinga......zue!! Ney kau zue??? Minjam kimia lok!!!Bis rehat, pengawas2 sial pom 5 pun maksa semua murid g dewan besar. Ada raptai...Far, sue, miezah, faz, a-key pun stay lam klas. Nisa kayo2 ngan pipot.G dewan. Adruce nunggah aku "oi! Kau ctok" wat?? So dudokla aku sebelah adruce ngan karlslaw. "oyh mas, apajakla kta o...top 3 tapi kelas ujong!" yalah...nesal aku sik blaja mena2. "p at least ada sijil doe! Tok 1st time ku nerimak dari kolej!" Yaka? Kuikuikui...aku pun sama...

Tuesday, February 01, 2005

...pouring my heart out...

"Scars"

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help you fix yourself
You're making me insane
All I can say is

I tear my heart open, I sew myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
And our scars remind us that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

I tried to help you once
Against my own advice
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That you're drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last stand

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever came around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause you're drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
Go fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life!